You know, I have no memories of catcalling women or sexually propositioning women. I know now that these things are wrong, but I didn\u2019t always know that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I used to think it was acceptable. Society and my peers taught me that. But for some reason, I\u2019ve never done it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n
Maybe it\u2019s because I get uncomfortable around women in intimate situations, like if I\u2019m sitting next to a woman and our knees touch. Or if we\u2019re laughing about something and she touches my arm or leg. Or she hugs me as a hello.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I mean, if I can\u2019t handle a woman touching my arm, I can\u2019t imagine how I\u2019d be able to handle a fling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I had a girlfriend once who broke up with me after a week because I hadn\u2019t kissed her yet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Or maybe it\u2019s because I\u2019ve had adult women proposition me when I was younger.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The first time was when I was 14, and the receptionist at my orthodontist said it with a laugh. Because apparently it\u2019s humorous to hit on someone who\u2019s half your age and a minor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The second time was when I was 18. It was a friend of my girlfriend\u2019s mother, who I had agreed to drive home. She didn\u2019t say it as a joke, but she *was* drunk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In both instances, I was alone with these women, one in a waiting room and one in the front seat of my car. Both times, I had no idea how to respond, so I didn\u2019t. I just kind of ignored it. And nothing more happened.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It was super weird. And super uncomfortable.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So, I don\u2019t know. Maybe it\u2019s because I know it\u2019s wrong, or maybe it\u2019s because I get so uncomfortable, or maybe because I know how it feels. Or maybe it\u2019s all three.<\/p>\n\n\n\n